8/1/2015 - Who said it was easy?

Hello hello, it's the first post of 2015. Um, customary New Year's Resolutions intro that I will probably never accomplish? Do? What do people even do with New Year's Resolutions? Um so for 2015 I would like to go workout and get fitter, probably with Kiat when the damn school gym opens. Finally go get a job and see what it's like to work, probably as a cook or barista in a cafe, something that deals with food in a more casual setting. Finally get around to refurbishing my room? I have been procrastinating on that way too much. And lastly maybe see if I can at least get 4k MMR in DotA 2 and Gold 1 for LoL. I am totally unsure what the exchange rate between DotA 2 MMR and LoL ranks but I'm not exactly of the same skill level in the two games anyway. 

To the meat and potatoes of the topic, who said it was easy? What am I talking about? Love, that's what. I'm quite certain it's not the the first time you've seen someone or heard someone saying that love isn't easy because it really isn't. The fantasies of your pre-adolescent self about what love is almost always come from all those rom-coms and other romance films and they are hardly a true reflection of what love really is. Perhaps one day you will see it for yourself if you've yet to see this.

Sacrificing. No I'm not talking about putting the one you love on an altar while raising a dagger with a wicked curve above their heart while invoking some demon or obscure jungle god before plunging the knife into their chest. I'm sure you know what I mean by sacrificing and we all acknowledge how important it is. If it's just one person who sacrifices in the relationship, sooner or later the one sacrificing will get tired of being the only one who is giving and giving, always giving but never receiving.

Admiration. That's what I have for people who can be like a dog. I don't mean it in a bad way. I mean it in like that they can always forget what the owner has done to them and that no matter how much they are pushed away, they can keep coming back. Even if it's for the wrong reasons or no reasons that they are being pushed away, they still love the person enough to come back over and over again so that they can be pushed away again. I don't know for sure but it's my opinion that you can only push someone away so many times before they learn to stop coming back, either because they have given up or that they are just too tired to care anymore. It's not easy to love someone that hard and have the tenacity to never stop coming back.

Commitment. For people who are more open it's probably not as important but I'm old fashioned and to me, it's a pretty big deal. What's the point of being in a relationship if one cannot find it in themselves to commit readily? To me, it just means you don't love the person enough to be exclusive to them. And to those who can tolerate that their partner is uncommitted even though they are not fine with it, tip of the hat to you for having that capacity to love them so much you can overlook it. And to the other perspective, maybe it isn't as easy for you to commit, but love isn't easy.

Fallacy. The difference between dating and being in a relationship. It's a learning journey and I have learned something. When two people are dating, hardly is there an argument. But when they are in a relationship, suddenly it's just so much easier to spark one. The fallacies only a boyfriend can make. A line I thought of that sparked the writing of this post. And here this post shall end.