Just gonna make it a quick one. When I first joined DGAD and had people ask about my grades, most of them were surprised by how good they were and even asked me what I was doing there and not in an Engineering course. If I remembered correctly, I even had the course coordinator ask me that too in the first weeks of school, if I was sure I wanted to be in DGAD with grades as "good"(they're decent but nothing spectacular) as mine. Back then I didn't have a solid plan for my future and figured I enjoyed designing games so might as well try to make a career out of it till I realised I can't draw for shit and decided it might be better to go for my truer passion of the Sciences and then the same people who were surprised at me going to DGAD were then surprised that I was leaving DGAD. I just thought it was funny that they expected me to join an Engineering course but then when I decided I wanted to transfer, they're all shocked and shit. Funnier still was how I was encouraged to by my ex and when the transfer was nigh, she decided that she didn't want me to.
But I'll have to say, the thing is, people come and go in your life, but the things you choose to do stay with you for the rest of your life. Ask yourself if it is really worth doing or not doing something because of one person that may not stay in it.
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
The Way Things Turn Out
So recently my girlfriend and I broke up, which means I'm out of the Japan trip that we(mostly she and my other friend) planned, which is actually pretty decent since the trip is costing close to 2 grand and with an impending financial crisis, according to my sister who studies Economics, that's not the kind of money I should be throwing around. Also somehow I found a country cover of Fireflies on Spotify right as I'm writing this. Not bad. Well that's all I'm gonna say on it anyway because when you say too much, people tend to get the wrong impressions and someone becomes a villain, which to be honest, in the story of us, there isn't. Just two people who weren't meant to be together.
I guess I've drifted somewhat from my old friends and my girlfriend. Not being in the same class anymore or playing the same games anymore leaves very little to talk about. Well it's not like they didn't invite me to play games with them but it's Maplestory, you see. And I fucking hate that game. You see, it's an "RPG" but you can go ahead and ask most players and they can never tell you the game's story word for word. Most people don't even fucking do the quests. And see, they give you far too many quests than is possible to complete before you level up or is economic to do so. A person who actually bothers to do these quests will lag far far behind someone who doesn't give a shit. But you wonder, what's the most efficient way of leveling up in Maplestory(if you don't already know)? Well my dear reader, the answer to that is mindless grinding in various training grounds. Doing nothing but just killing mobs. And to be honest I really see no purpose in that. I fail to see how endless farming of creeps is fun. If I were to play an RPG, I would want to know every story there is to know about. I would do every quest and squeeze the game dry of its story. Now how will I achieve the grand achievement of "I can reach xxx level in 1 day"? Listen to every Mapler, when they talk about how "good" they are in the game, it's all about how fast they can level up. They don't talk about the story of the game. They know jack shit about all the other NPCs. They can only tell you about the "heroes" and that's it. What the fuck is the fun in that? What the fuck kind of an RPG is that where no one actually plays the game for the story.
And if I were to play such a game, I would actually go ahead and do the quests to immerse myself in the story and find myself left far far behind by them and I'll just be left to be playing by myself and what's the point in that? So I just refused to join them in the first place. And well I guess they took that to be that I don't even want to play any games at all with them and they went ahead and started a new game without even asking me at all. And they actually started a game that I might consider playing if it weren't so expensive. So whatever really. Really, I'm not even pissed. I'm just disappointed that just because I don't want to play Maplestory with them, they took it as a sign that I don't want to do anything with them. Hell they even went out to eat together and didn't even invite me.
I guess, it's really just how the way things turn out.
I guess I've drifted somewhat from my old friends and my girlfriend. Not being in the same class anymore or playing the same games anymore leaves very little to talk about. Well it's not like they didn't invite me to play games with them but it's Maplestory, you see. And I fucking hate that game. You see, it's an "RPG" but you can go ahead and ask most players and they can never tell you the game's story word for word. Most people don't even fucking do the quests. And see, they give you far too many quests than is possible to complete before you level up or is economic to do so. A person who actually bothers to do these quests will lag far far behind someone who doesn't give a shit. But you wonder, what's the most efficient way of leveling up in Maplestory(if you don't already know)? Well my dear reader, the answer to that is mindless grinding in various training grounds. Doing nothing but just killing mobs. And to be honest I really see no purpose in that. I fail to see how endless farming of creeps is fun. If I were to play an RPG, I would want to know every story there is to know about. I would do every quest and squeeze the game dry of its story. Now how will I achieve the grand achievement of "I can reach xxx level in 1 day"? Listen to every Mapler, when they talk about how "good" they are in the game, it's all about how fast they can level up. They don't talk about the story of the game. They know jack shit about all the other NPCs. They can only tell you about the "heroes" and that's it. What the fuck is the fun in that? What the fuck kind of an RPG is that where no one actually plays the game for the story.
And if I were to play such a game, I would actually go ahead and do the quests to immerse myself in the story and find myself left far far behind by them and I'll just be left to be playing by myself and what's the point in that? So I just refused to join them in the first place. And well I guess they took that to be that I don't even want to play any games at all with them and they went ahead and started a new game without even asking me at all. And they actually started a game that I might consider playing if it weren't so expensive. So whatever really. Really, I'm not even pissed. I'm just disappointed that just because I don't want to play Maplestory with them, they took it as a sign that I don't want to do anything with them. Hell they even went out to eat together and didn't even invite me.
I guess, it's really just how the way things turn out.
Friday, June 19, 2015
Sharks
So the Vesak day weekend, long time ago, waited till now to talk about this because I'm a shit ass procrastinator. So I went to KL to offer my prayers to my ancestors and while I was there I was at that shitty ass stinky street market that I once featured on my instagram where there was dead cow heads and rats lying about. So as I was walking through that overcrowded mess, I saw that there was a new addition in the fishmonger's offerings which were juvenile sharks and like a stack of them. That was kinda sad to look at seeing that sharks are endangered and also raises the question of how come there's no regulations on this, who the hell actually eats shark meat, where the sharks are coming from and what not.
So that's pretty much it for this one, I'd just like to ask all of you to not eat shark meats and not approve of it. It's high in mercury and the sharks are going to shit and if they do go to shit, the whole ocean goes to shit too so just don't.
So that's pretty much it for this one, I'd just like to ask all of you to not eat shark meats and not approve of it. It's high in mercury and the sharks are going to shit and if they do go to shit, the whole ocean goes to shit too so just don't.
Sunday, May 24, 2015
Substandard Police?
So today I had the chance to visit a police station in Malaysia, Johor Bahru, in fact. Since I can't read Malay or speak it to save my life, I have no idea where that place was beyond that it was pretty near City Square which is that shopping centre right outside JB Sentral, where you step out of the CIQ customs from the Woodlands Causeway. What I saw really gave me a shocker. The facepalm kind of shocker, not the oh-shit-that-scared-me kind.
My mother was there just to report her stolen handphone, my sister and I were following since she didn't have a handphone of her own and we didn't want to get separated. At the sentry post of that police station stood a guard with an M16A1 variant, triangular handguard, standard STANAG aluminium box magazine, though I have no idea what other details of the rifle there is, beyond the signature triangular handguard of the A1 variant, nothing really special. An hour or so later, the guard switched. The previous one, the one that was standing duty when I got there, was holding the rifle up, in the "Rusok Sendrata" pose. Not sure if I spelled that right, or if it even is the right command, it was just what I was taught in NCC, where the rifle is held by the right hand on the back of the pistol grip, where the palm of your hand would normally rest on when holding it in a shooting position, with the rifle pointing up at a slight angle, triangular front sight post and gas block just right in front of the right shoulder. This next guard that came along though, oh ho, he was special. Well the guards weren't exactly standing still at duty in a little box where they had to stand. Granted that's alright, guard duty isn't a parade after all but still, show some discipline yea? You represent the police force of Malaysia with that uniform after all.
So as I was saying, this next guard was really something special. If he was one of my cadets back in NCC, if I was posted as a platoon sergeant, hell I'd recommend this guy for RTC(Recruit Training Camp) every fucking year. He'd join the fucking Sec 1s for 3 years. Fucking hell this guy has such little respect for the gun, my goodness. He stood in the "Senangdiri" position, at ease, that means, for my non-melayu speaking friends, gripping the front sight post of the rifle. Or he was supposed to anyway because HIS FUCKING HAND WAS ON THE GOD DAMN MUZZLE OF THE GUN. YOU KNOW THE PART WHERE BULLETS COME WHIZZING OUT AT SPEEDS FASTER THAN SOUND? YEA. THAT HOLE. HAD HIS WHOLE HAND ON IT. Jesus fucking Christ, skin me with a butter knife. Like wot. You're a policeman. Who uses guns. You're supposed to know how to use a gun to save the lives of people by putting down those who would threaten the peace. But it looks like before that happens, you're gonna blow your hand off.
He brazenly walks the fuck around with his hand gripping the muzzle of the gun, palm on the hole of the rifle barrel, ready to blow his fucking hand off if the gun was loaded and the safety fails. OR WOULD IT BECAUSE IT WASN'T EVEN ON SAFE. The fucking rifle, had its safety selector switched to the semi notch. For semi-automatic fire. What the literal serious fuck nugget. And right before then, the previous guard had hipped the rifle. Not exactly shoulder since he held it Rambo style and like waved it around at the ground, facing the police station, with his colleagues and innocent civilians in it. Had it misfired, bullet hits the tarmac, ricochets off the tarmac into the fucking police station and someone dies. What the fuck. The supposed guardians of the state of Johor and this is all they got? Come on, I don't even fucking do this for a job and I can tell you what the fuck you're doing wrong.
Some time ago, maybe a couple years back I think, I saw a story on the internet where there was an MP5 submachinegun(I think, but I know it was a firearm of some sort larger than a pistol) left in a patrol car. Well, nothing special, plenty of police departments internationally carry some sort of larger firepower firearm in their patrol cars, be that a shotgun, submachine gun, long rifle or carbine. Except, it isn't securely locked. I think American patrol vehicles that carry shotguns in the cabin have them locked in a rack between the front seats. Singaporean patrol vehicles I think keep the MP5 submachinegun in a gun safe in the trunk. Well, the MP5 was literally sitting just on top of the handbrake. Just lying there. Smash the glass in and hey, guess what, I know own a fully automatic firearm for free, courtesy of the police. Except guess what? I DON'T EVEN HAVE TO DO THAT. THE WINDOW WAS ROLLED DOWN. Hey yo, free guns I guess. Thank you, kind policeman.
So that's all I have to say, perhaps I think, it is about time Malaysia looks into stricter training for its policemen serving the nation. Can't say if this is the same throughout all of Malaysia but it surely is indicative.
My mother was there just to report her stolen handphone, my sister and I were following since she didn't have a handphone of her own and we didn't want to get separated. At the sentry post of that police station stood a guard with an M16A1 variant, triangular handguard, standard STANAG aluminium box magazine, though I have no idea what other details of the rifle there is, beyond the signature triangular handguard of the A1 variant, nothing really special. An hour or so later, the guard switched. The previous one, the one that was standing duty when I got there, was holding the rifle up, in the "Rusok Sendrata" pose. Not sure if I spelled that right, or if it even is the right command, it was just what I was taught in NCC, where the rifle is held by the right hand on the back of the pistol grip, where the palm of your hand would normally rest on when holding it in a shooting position, with the rifle pointing up at a slight angle, triangular front sight post and gas block just right in front of the right shoulder. This next guard that came along though, oh ho, he was special. Well the guards weren't exactly standing still at duty in a little box where they had to stand. Granted that's alright, guard duty isn't a parade after all but still, show some discipline yea? You represent the police force of Malaysia with that uniform after all.
So as I was saying, this next guard was really something special. If he was one of my cadets back in NCC, if I was posted as a platoon sergeant, hell I'd recommend this guy for RTC(Recruit Training Camp) every fucking year. He'd join the fucking Sec 1s for 3 years. Fucking hell this guy has such little respect for the gun, my goodness. He stood in the "Senangdiri" position, at ease, that means, for my non-melayu speaking friends, gripping the front sight post of the rifle. Or he was supposed to anyway because HIS FUCKING HAND WAS ON THE GOD DAMN MUZZLE OF THE GUN. YOU KNOW THE PART WHERE BULLETS COME WHIZZING OUT AT SPEEDS FASTER THAN SOUND? YEA. THAT HOLE. HAD HIS WHOLE HAND ON IT. Jesus fucking Christ, skin me with a butter knife. Like wot. You're a policeman. Who uses guns. You're supposed to know how to use a gun to save the lives of people by putting down those who would threaten the peace. But it looks like before that happens, you're gonna blow your hand off.
He brazenly walks the fuck around with his hand gripping the muzzle of the gun, palm on the hole of the rifle barrel, ready to blow his fucking hand off if the gun was loaded and the safety fails. OR WOULD IT BECAUSE IT WASN'T EVEN ON SAFE. The fucking rifle, had its safety selector switched to the semi notch. For semi-automatic fire. What the literal serious fuck nugget. And right before then, the previous guard had hipped the rifle. Not exactly shoulder since he held it Rambo style and like waved it around at the ground, facing the police station, with his colleagues and innocent civilians in it. Had it misfired, bullet hits the tarmac, ricochets off the tarmac into the fucking police station and someone dies. What the fuck. The supposed guardians of the state of Johor and this is all they got? Come on, I don't even fucking do this for a job and I can tell you what the fuck you're doing wrong.
Some time ago, maybe a couple years back I think, I saw a story on the internet where there was an MP5 submachinegun(I think, but I know it was a firearm of some sort larger than a pistol) left in a patrol car. Well, nothing special, plenty of police departments internationally carry some sort of larger firepower firearm in their patrol cars, be that a shotgun, submachine gun, long rifle or carbine. Except, it isn't securely locked. I think American patrol vehicles that carry shotguns in the cabin have them locked in a rack between the front seats. Singaporean patrol vehicles I think keep the MP5 submachinegun in a gun safe in the trunk. Well, the MP5 was literally sitting just on top of the handbrake. Just lying there. Smash the glass in and hey, guess what, I know own a fully automatic firearm for free, courtesy of the police. Except guess what? I DON'T EVEN HAVE TO DO THAT. THE WINDOW WAS ROLLED DOWN. Hey yo, free guns I guess. Thank you, kind policeman.
So that's all I have to say, perhaps I think, it is about time Malaysia looks into stricter training for its policemen serving the nation. Can't say if this is the same throughout all of Malaysia but it surely is indicative.
Sunday, May 10, 2015
Electronic Music and Me
Just a short-ish blogpost about my foray into Electronic music, a little history about how I came to start listening to it and how it has affected me, perhaps a little on why I like it. Making this blog post because hell, I've been into EM for a short while now and I may know very little on it, but just felt like giving my own 2 cents on it.
So I guess there were a multitude of reasons that culminated in my eventual exploration of it. Well it's very limited since I listen largely to Zedd and just one song from Calvin Harris that I've begun to realise actually lacks any lyrical depth. Yeah I know, EM isn't about the lyrics, it's about the beat. But I can't bring myself to enjoy a song purely on its beat alone, it's gotta have something substantial in the lyrics department. My first exposure to it I guess, I have to thank Zen for, for relentlessly playing Zed(League of Legends champion) with Clarity(mana giving summoner spell). Every time he does that, it was customary to play Zedd - Clarity, a thing we had among ourselves that was amusing. Back then, I didn't really listen closely to it as well, it was just a joke to me and I don't have the focus to really listen to it and play at the same time. Then I had my girlfriend who was really into Electronic music and kept pressuring me to listen to it.
Well I guess one day I did, was trying to find that song Rude by Magic! and just clicked the first link without looking too closely and got the Zedd version of it. I realised a minute into the song and saw that it was by Zedd, and thought "Hell, why not listen to Clarity?" This time I actually listened to it and was completely blown away by parts of the song that I hadn't caught before, little details that just wowed me. The lyrics of the song got me, I'm a romantic at heart and it had undeniable tones of a couple that knows they can't do without each other. So dang, just like that, after a couple replays I got totally hooked on Zedd and began to explore other songs by him. That was sorta how I got into EM, albeit just exclusively Zedd at the time.
So ever since I got hooked onto EM, things that really didn't matter to me became so much more apparent. Basses and beat among others. Prior, I didn't really care much about the songs I listened to so long as they had meaningful lyrics and was pleasing to the ear. I'm not so sure how to put it but EM just has that thing that Pop doesn't offer. Apart from that, there's sounds in EM that you just can't get out of normal instruments, stuff that sends shivers through my body. It can really put me in a place that the stuff I used to listen to before didn't and that's really something.
So yeah, that's pretty much it.
So I guess there were a multitude of reasons that culminated in my eventual exploration of it. Well it's very limited since I listen largely to Zedd and just one song from Calvin Harris that I've begun to realise actually lacks any lyrical depth. Yeah I know, EM isn't about the lyrics, it's about the beat. But I can't bring myself to enjoy a song purely on its beat alone, it's gotta have something substantial in the lyrics department. My first exposure to it I guess, I have to thank Zen for, for relentlessly playing Zed(League of Legends champion) with Clarity(mana giving summoner spell). Every time he does that, it was customary to play Zedd - Clarity, a thing we had among ourselves that was amusing. Back then, I didn't really listen closely to it as well, it was just a joke to me and I don't have the focus to really listen to it and play at the same time. Then I had my girlfriend who was really into Electronic music and kept pressuring me to listen to it.
Well I guess one day I did, was trying to find that song Rude by Magic! and just clicked the first link without looking too closely and got the Zedd version of it. I realised a minute into the song and saw that it was by Zedd, and thought "Hell, why not listen to Clarity?" This time I actually listened to it and was completely blown away by parts of the song that I hadn't caught before, little details that just wowed me. The lyrics of the song got me, I'm a romantic at heart and it had undeniable tones of a couple that knows they can't do without each other. So dang, just like that, after a couple replays I got totally hooked on Zedd and began to explore other songs by him. That was sorta how I got into EM, albeit just exclusively Zedd at the time.
So ever since I got hooked onto EM, things that really didn't matter to me became so much more apparent. Basses and beat among others. Prior, I didn't really care much about the songs I listened to so long as they had meaningful lyrics and was pleasing to the ear. I'm not so sure how to put it but EM just has that thing that Pop doesn't offer. Apart from that, there's sounds in EM that you just can't get out of normal instruments, stuff that sends shivers through my body. It can really put me in a place that the stuff I used to listen to before didn't and that's really something.
So yeah, that's pretty much it.
Answer
Alright, long overdue but at least I'm finally writing it. The reply to your direct message on Twitter which I have ignored for a really long time. But I won't be replying you there, but here, because hell I do what I want.
To be completely honest, I didn't really dislike you, personally I had nothing against you. You just happened to be a convenient source of entertainment on a boring bus ride home. But aside from that, actually, I think you're the one that has a problem with me. Hark back a season or two, you absolutely hated me and I don't even know why, though I suspect a thing or two. I've never spoken to you before, nor you me. So I have absolutely no idea why you hated me. And one game of Dota 2, I think the first I've ever played with you, I wasn't included in the Skype call, not that I cared either way, it'd just be a lot better for coordination. You mentioned that you couldn't wait to see how noob I was, haha, I found out. I later went on to get a rampage that game, how's that for you? Among other comments like I didn't use chronosphere a single time that game(I did but you didn't see) and how I didn't use it in the teamfight top lane. To which I replied then and I will reply again now, I was bot lane, chronosphere is not global. Do you expect me to chronosphere the bot lane tower for no good reason?
One more thing, there's a massive discrepancy between what you preach and what you actually do. On your own blog, you mention that you know what love meant to you and how a crush you had had confessed to you but you rejected him because of the aforementioned reason. Yet, here we are a little less than a month later, on your Twitter where you were literally almost begging for someone you like to confess to you. What for? So you can reject the guy? I don't understand this disparity. Just a word of advice, beautiful things are worth waiting for(I've actually indirectly tweeted this at you before.). Just because most of your peers have partners doesn't mean you need one.
You say you miss our group but do you really? That's very ambiguous. If I take that for what it is, that would imply that you miss all of us, the entire group. Are you really sure you still do? Cause I seem to recall that you don't like a couple of us, nor do you have any particular reason to like every single member of group 1.
I'm pretty sure there's a couple things I left out that I don't recall at this specific moment but the gist of it is there. That's my answer to you.
To be completely honest, I didn't really dislike you, personally I had nothing against you. You just happened to be a convenient source of entertainment on a boring bus ride home. But aside from that, actually, I think you're the one that has a problem with me. Hark back a season or two, you absolutely hated me and I don't even know why, though I suspect a thing or two. I've never spoken to you before, nor you me. So I have absolutely no idea why you hated me. And one game of Dota 2, I think the first I've ever played with you, I wasn't included in the Skype call, not that I cared either way, it'd just be a lot better for coordination. You mentioned that you couldn't wait to see how noob I was, haha, I found out. I later went on to get a rampage that game, how's that for you? Among other comments like I didn't use chronosphere a single time that game(I did but you didn't see) and how I didn't use it in the teamfight top lane. To which I replied then and I will reply again now, I was bot lane, chronosphere is not global. Do you expect me to chronosphere the bot lane tower for no good reason?
One more thing, there's a massive discrepancy between what you preach and what you actually do. On your own blog, you mention that you know what love meant to you and how a crush you had had confessed to you but you rejected him because of the aforementioned reason. Yet, here we are a little less than a month later, on your Twitter where you were literally almost begging for someone you like to confess to you. What for? So you can reject the guy? I don't understand this disparity. Just a word of advice, beautiful things are worth waiting for(I've actually indirectly tweeted this at you before.). Just because most of your peers have partners doesn't mean you need one.
You say you miss our group but do you really? That's very ambiguous. If I take that for what it is, that would imply that you miss all of us, the entire group. Are you really sure you still do? Cause I seem to recall that you don't like a couple of us, nor do you have any particular reason to like every single member of group 1.
I'm pretty sure there's a couple things I left out that I don't recall at this specific moment but the gist of it is there. That's my answer to you.
Tuesday, May 5, 2015
Update + Rant
Yo whats up people I just transferred to my new course just this week on the 4th of May, which is Nanotechnology and Materials Science. Was accepted because, as I was told, my Chemistry score for O Levels was pretty good. My new classmates seem pretty friendly and I think I'll be fine here though I'd say it's still too early to tell if they'll become my friends. I don't know them all that well yet. So here it is, my farewell to all my friends of DGAD, definitely going to miss you guys because I really hate new long-term environments and it usually takes me a couple months to get comfortable. I know I kind of left without saying goodbye but well, I'm not so good with that.
Interesting to note, most of my other course mates seem to be really full of shit. But good thing my class seems fine.
So I just watched an old video by Veritasium as part of an assignment and was just mildly annoyed by how stupid and ignorant some people are that they don't even know what water is made up of or the states of matter. It's not a poor African child who can't afford school here, it's a very obviously middle class white girl as well as several other adults in their 20s and 30s. For fuck's sake the girl called a water molecule "the little circles of oxygen". Yes, because that's all that's in a water molecule, H2O. She can't even name hydrogen, the most common element in the universe, off the back of her head and it's really just wow. What the fuck do you even do in school. Some people can't even afford to go to school. And then some asshat in the comment section defending that she does not need such knowledge for life. Sure, she doesn't. It won't kill her but still this is high school/secondary school knowledge, it's so basic.
So that's pretty much it, just a really small update and rant about ignorance. Wonder if any of my new classmates will find this.
Interesting to note, most of my other course mates seem to be really full of shit. But good thing my class seems fine.
So I just watched an old video by Veritasium as part of an assignment and was just mildly annoyed by how stupid and ignorant some people are that they don't even know what water is made up of or the states of matter. It's not a poor African child who can't afford school here, it's a very obviously middle class white girl as well as several other adults in their 20s and 30s. For fuck's sake the girl called a water molecule "the little circles of oxygen". Yes, because that's all that's in a water molecule, H2O. She can't even name hydrogen, the most common element in the universe, off the back of her head and it's really just wow. What the fuck do you even do in school. Some people can't even afford to go to school. And then some asshat in the comment section defending that she does not need such knowledge for life. Sure, she doesn't. It won't kill her but still this is high school/secondary school knowledge, it's so basic.
So that's pretty much it, just a really small update and rant about ignorance. Wonder if any of my new classmates will find this.
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