The last post I regret that I have done too late and hence I have forgotten some details which resulted in a poor recount of the events. However, I'm just going to talk about something that has dawned upon me in my trip, which is that I have very expensive tastes. If you know me on my other platforms or in my more recent real life, you may know what I am talking about. So I shall begin.
If you have noticed my Instagram, most of my more recent posts have been of writing, and that is because I have more or less recently gotten into this dangerous (for my wallet) hobby of fountain pens. I got my first one, which was a Muji pocket fountain pen, more or less, about at the start of this year actually and it's a pretty good pen, for a pocket one. The cap tends to slide up and down when posted and is too short for me unposted but in terms of its writing experience and looks, I don't really have much complaints against it. It's relatively cheap too, about 13SGD, and you may think this expensive, but you will soon learn that there are more expensive ones out there. Woe be my wallet for as of now, my shopping cart carries a price of 210USD. 3 pens and the rest inks. And surprisingly, the inks cost more than my pens, but I do concede that they are mostly large bottles, which I may never use up and that they are slightly more expensive (but do come with free pens, some of them at least).
Fountain pens definitely aren't cheap and neither are their inks. That is true. But I'd say that over the long run, they are actually just as if not more economical than ballpoints. Plus your writing just looks so much more phenomenal because there are certain inks that have more vibrant colours or incredible shading and it just makes your writing so much more interesting even if it isn't. But this is an incredibly expensive taste, I cannot deny that. The more amazing the pens are, the more they tend to cost especially if they are made by hand, like some authentic Maki-e pens are, or are branded, like Montblanc and Visconti.
Some of my other more expensive tastes lie in watches as well, though I do not really know much about them, I do admit that I like a good looking watch. Then there's suits, which honestly if I had the money, I'd never be seen not in one unless there's exercise involved. Shoes as well, for they are my poison. I have 2 more shoes that I have yet to wear because my current shoe is still wearable, though if it were up to me, I'd retire it because it has been rather disfigured from use. I also like my alcohol and unfortunately, in Singapore, it is a very expensive habit. Which is kinda why I don't intend to stay here for long, for other reasons as well.
So I guess that's the end of my post, my tastes are expensive and I'm a poor person. That is all.
Saturday, April 30, 2016
Saturday, April 23, 2016
Trip
Finally back from my school trip and I'm knackered to shit. This post will probably be mainly about the trip and less of my thoughts while I was there, I have decided to move those to its individual upcoming posts.(This ended up sitting as a draft on one of my tabs untouched for a week or so so I'm going to finally finish it now.)
So honestly it was kinda all over in a flash. It did not feel like it had been so long, even up until the moment we had to leave Panyu for Hong Kong. I guess time flies when you are having fun and with good company eh? Wasn't much to do on the first day actually because by the time we reached the school it was almost 1700+ and we just went for dinner before being shown the other canteen and our hostel. I was absolutely knackered from having spent the previous night awake (fucked up sleep cycle, couldn't fix it in time) so I had an "early" night. Though the others were not so. Hardly had much sleep throughout the whole trip except the last Sunday. Can't quite remember what we did on what day but basically there was a visit to a couple historic sites and the Toyota factory in Guangzhou as well as this super ancient TCM company that was at least 300-400 years old. There was also a visit to a beer factory, which is probably bad for my life, it had been a while since I had a taste of my poison. And squat toilets, fuck squat toilets.
There was a lot of exposing about my life as well. Though I did learn something about the others, I can't help but feel that I've exposed more to them than they did to me. Though it's not always that others have a life that is filled with experiences that others are interested in, just so happened that mine was. There was a lot of talk about my past "relationships" because honestly I think only 1 of them can really be considered a real relationship, though also not really. Kinda strange that there I was giving "relationship advice" when none of my relationships lasted longer than a year and all of them failed in some way. Personally I just didn't feel like I was the right person to do it. Shouldn't they be asking their parents? They did reach the "end game" of dating after all.
As for things I bought myself, I didn't really get much, other than fountain pens, which are a new found passion of mine. There were 3 different models available at the school's convenience store, I bought 2 of them, which is fairly interesting to me because these aren't things you just find like that in Singapore. They were fairly cheap and I haven't really formed an opinion on them yet, as of now I've only written with one and it's fairly expectant of its price range, which was 3 SGD. Then there was the Lamy one I bought which is by far the most expensive pen I have that I doubt I will bring out for fear of losing it and I doubt I will be lending to people in any case because of the nib wearing and that most people tend not to know how to use a fountain pen and I don't wanna risk it breaking. Oh and in Hong Kong, I went to Disneyland there and got me a BB-8 blueprint shirt as well as a Resistance pin. I just have a penchant for little trinkets like that (I mean the pin).
So that's probably about it.
So honestly it was kinda all over in a flash. It did not feel like it had been so long, even up until the moment we had to leave Panyu for Hong Kong. I guess time flies when you are having fun and with good company eh? Wasn't much to do on the first day actually because by the time we reached the school it was almost 1700+ and we just went for dinner before being shown the other canteen and our hostel. I was absolutely knackered from having spent the previous night awake (fucked up sleep cycle, couldn't fix it in time) so I had an "early" night. Though the others were not so. Hardly had much sleep throughout the whole trip except the last Sunday. Can't quite remember what we did on what day but basically there was a visit to a couple historic sites and the Toyota factory in Guangzhou as well as this super ancient TCM company that was at least 300-400 years old. There was also a visit to a beer factory, which is probably bad for my life, it had been a while since I had a taste of my poison. And squat toilets, fuck squat toilets.
There was a lot of exposing about my life as well. Though I did learn something about the others, I can't help but feel that I've exposed more to them than they did to me. Though it's not always that others have a life that is filled with experiences that others are interested in, just so happened that mine was. There was a lot of talk about my past "relationships" because honestly I think only 1 of them can really be considered a real relationship, though also not really. Kinda strange that there I was giving "relationship advice" when none of my relationships lasted longer than a year and all of them failed in some way. Personally I just didn't feel like I was the right person to do it. Shouldn't they be asking their parents? They did reach the "end game" of dating after all.
As for things I bought myself, I didn't really get much, other than fountain pens, which are a new found passion of mine. There were 3 different models available at the school's convenience store, I bought 2 of them, which is fairly interesting to me because these aren't things you just find like that in Singapore. They were fairly cheap and I haven't really formed an opinion on them yet, as of now I've only written with one and it's fairly expectant of its price range, which was 3 SGD. Then there was the Lamy one I bought which is by far the most expensive pen I have that I doubt I will bring out for fear of losing it and I doubt I will be lending to people in any case because of the nib wearing and that most people tend not to know how to use a fountain pen and I don't wanna risk it breaking. Oh and in Hong Kong, I went to Disneyland there and got me a BB-8 blueprint shirt as well as a Resistance pin. I just have a penchant for little trinkets like that (I mean the pin).
So that's probably about it.
Sunday, April 17, 2016
What's going on?
I have decided to make this public. As some of my readers will know, it was a draft on my blog that culminated in my third ex and I getting together. The following is that draft without this first paragraph. Understand that this was written almost a whole year ago and was pretty hastily written without much proofreading and hence the English is not only a little cancerous, some details are also left out while others that I did not remember have remained here. I have also gained much clearer hindsight on my first 2 relationships as well so whatever I have mentioned about them in the draft may not be relevant anymore. I have made a decision to keep the original title of the draft as opposed to my recent trend of one word titles.
Anyway, I had the pinchings of a lifetime that day. By the gods. They were real and they came so often. Well YF pinched Ian too so I guess we both had it. Though I still think I had it more. And then there's other things. She slept on me because she didn't want to sleep on the table(and I was 100% sure I smelled like sweat). Then there was the tickling, which I attempted to stop by grabbing her hands, which I then realised I still held on to it so I decided to let it go. And her caressing my hair, which she did on Wednesday and Friday, when we went to Ikea after fixing her laptop. And while we were queueing up for food, she looked up into my face and did this real adorable smile with her eyes closed. Like geez it was tempting to go ahead and peck her on the lips. But we're just friends and it would have been creepy if I did that so I didn't. And then on the train journey back, there was space for both of us on the train to stand pretty apart, close since it was crowded but not that crowded that we were touching. She for some reason decided to push me(not physically but sort of made me back up by coming nearer and nearer) into the door such that her face was literally underneath mine and I swore she grazed my dick with the back of her hand. And then using me as a pole in the MRT, holding on even when the train was stationary.
I'm really not quite sure what to make of all that. Throughout 10 years of my education and interaction with females, I've neither made that much contact with a girl nor received that much flirting. Well then again there were my two girlfriends. Apart from them, not really anyone else. And the level of flirting was beyond what they ever did. Now see, she's really a great girl. She's definitely attractive, pretty smart, caring and a brilliant friend. I can see myself loving her more than friends. But I'm hesitant because this could be not what I think it is. Either she does like me, she doesn't and just doesn't know how to not make boys fall in love with her. And I don't think it likely that she likes me because we've been shipped together by our friends before and we have both given it thought. She said that I'm a lot like her boyfriend and she broke up with him like literally on Friday. Because he was too nice for a fucked up bitch like her. Which to be honest, I don't think she's a fucked up bitch at all. Then again, I don't know her history so I can't say.
And I'm also hesitant. Hesitant because I know her boyfriend and he knows me. Also, a classmate likes her too. Even if she does like me, I'm still hesitant to do it because of my principles. I don't want to feel like I took her from them. I'm sorta lukewarm about this because of that. In the case that she does like me, that's great cause she's a wonderful girl. But then again I'm reluctant to like her back because of my principles and because of the other 2 guys. It's a fantastic dilemma ain't it?
Friday, March 25, 2016
Palestine
Haven't blogged in ages just because but I'm back and I've got something to talk about. Palestine. Well not really Palestine but rather Muslims and Palestine. Recently a news site had published an article about an Israeli soldier who shot a subdued Palestinian who had stabbed another soldier. Now, I'm going to say first, I'm not anti-Muslim or antisemitic, or anti-anything. I just call things out the way it is. Recently the Palestinians have been stabbing people or driving over people with their cars. I don't care about that either, because it's not my issue. I'm also not going to judge the soldier who shot the man, because I don't know him. He could just really hate the Palestinians or maybe he was infuriated by the man because he stabbed his best friend. Who knows?
What I really wanted to talk about is the Muslims who have been calling the Israelis "Zionist terrorists", and accusing them of genocide and illegally occupying the land that hold. Well if you really wanted to blame someone, you'd have to blame the Brits, who promised the land to Zionists, the Palestinians themselves and a third party for help in taking down the Ottoman empire. Then when the UN was formed, the Brits promptly dumped this issue onto them, who decided to give the land to the Zionists. So in other words, they are not illegally occupying the land. Nor that of the Sinai Peninsula and part of the Golan Heights because it was Egypt, Jordan and Syria who invaded them first and they came to possess those areas in their counteroffensive. And honestly, given the battle record of the IDF, it really wouldn't take that long for them to completely wipe out the Palestinians if they really wanted to.
So as I was saying, these Muslims that are supporting the Palestinians are only doing it because of Palestinian Muslims. Now, Palestine is a large place and historically has been populated by people of many religions, particularly Islam and Christianity. So what does that mean? There are Christian Palestinians (and Palestinians of other religions as well). So what else does that mean? Those Muslims that have been supporting Palestine are actually hypocrites. They aren't supporting Palestinians because it's a crime against humanity or that they sympathise with their struggle and what not, it's merely because of the fact that most Palestinians are Muslim. If Palestinians had been overwhelmingly Christian instead of Muslim (or really any other religion), I bet you my ass that none of them would be supporting the Palestinian cause. And seriously, some of them actually condone the stabbing, yet they condemn the shooting. Shouldn't you be condemning both?
And before I end off, Hamas isn't exactly a white knight either, they've used ambulances as troop transport and purposefully placed rocket batteries in civilian areas and also target civilian areas with those same rockets. They also put their headquarters and such in civilian areas, using them as human shields. So really, you can't expect me to sympathise with them either. I would also like to reiterate that I am not anti-Muslim, I'm just calling some of them out on their hypocrisy. That is all.
What I really wanted to talk about is the Muslims who have been calling the Israelis "Zionist terrorists", and accusing them of genocide and illegally occupying the land that hold. Well if you really wanted to blame someone, you'd have to blame the Brits, who promised the land to Zionists, the Palestinians themselves and a third party for help in taking down the Ottoman empire. Then when the UN was formed, the Brits promptly dumped this issue onto them, who decided to give the land to the Zionists. So in other words, they are not illegally occupying the land. Nor that of the Sinai Peninsula and part of the Golan Heights because it was Egypt, Jordan and Syria who invaded them first and they came to possess those areas in their counteroffensive. And honestly, given the battle record of the IDF, it really wouldn't take that long for them to completely wipe out the Palestinians if they really wanted to.
So as I was saying, these Muslims that are supporting the Palestinians are only doing it because of Palestinian Muslims. Now, Palestine is a large place and historically has been populated by people of many religions, particularly Islam and Christianity. So what does that mean? There are Christian Palestinians (and Palestinians of other religions as well). So what else does that mean? Those Muslims that have been supporting Palestine are actually hypocrites. They aren't supporting Palestinians because it's a crime against humanity or that they sympathise with their struggle and what not, it's merely because of the fact that most Palestinians are Muslim. If Palestinians had been overwhelmingly Christian instead of Muslim (or really any other religion), I bet you my ass that none of them would be supporting the Palestinian cause. And seriously, some of them actually condone the stabbing, yet they condemn the shooting. Shouldn't you be condemning both?
And before I end off, Hamas isn't exactly a white knight either, they've used ambulances as troop transport and purposefully placed rocket batteries in civilian areas and also target civilian areas with those same rockets. They also put their headquarters and such in civilian areas, using them as human shields. So really, you can't expect me to sympathise with them either. I would also like to reiterate that I am not anti-Muslim, I'm just calling some of them out on their hypocrisy. That is all.
Tuesday, February 23, 2016
Exam
Literally exams tomorrow. Or today, if you're like me and like to count it as the next day once it passes midnight. But I am also a person that requires to sleep before a day actually passes in my mind. So when I stay up for more than 24 hours, which is a common occurrence, that causes temporal problems for me where I lose track of the days. And I know jack shit about the last topic for the exam tomorrow, which is vectors (well not jack shit, I know the secondary school stuff but there's also new stuff so you know), and I'm right before the last tutorial but I'm just going to catch a quick break to type this blog post because my priorities are obviously in check. I check them as much as I check my straight Asian male privilege.
And should the fact that I did not listen in class and hence not know what the last topic is about faze me? Yes, why yes it should. Am I fazed? Not in the slightest. Honestly, if you can do the tutorials, you can do the exam. I did, after all, finish an exam with 20mins to spare and scored an A grade on it. I can only say, you just gotta be careful. If you could do the tutorials, you should be able to do the exam. Plain and simple. But honestly I feel like eventually the fact that I am never fazed by anything will come around and bite me in me arse and I'll kick myself in the arse at that moment for having known but not bothered. Like I could literally be facing death and be calm as fuck until I realised I fucked up actually and my last words would be," Well shit." Or," Oh fuck."
I'm also kind of an indirectly direct guy. Like say if I don't like you, you'll eventually know. I won't say it to your face, but you'll know. I won't pretend I like you, or at least, not for an extended period of time and even if I'm tolerating you, I will definitely still make sure I get out what I don't like about you, though I might not make it obvious at that moment. And I also literally do not give a fuck if you don't like me back. I don't need approval from other people. The only approval I need is from myself. As a friend of mine would say," Fuck you, you don't tell me what to do." Well unless of course someone's life is in danger or you're telling me how to bake a cake or something. Otherwise, if you don't like me as a person, I don't care in the slightest. Little people don't get to dictate my life. Go ahead and block me, it only tells me I win by forfeit. You can earn my respect when you can back your shit up yourself. Until then, what you're telling me is the equivalent of air. Worthless.
Which also reminds me of this other piece of shit that I've actually talked about before. I'll just call him K9. Basically, a piece of shit not because he has a shit character, which he does but that's not the point, but because he denies what he is. First of all, he's a weeb (weaboo). I am inclined to dislike weebs if that's my first impression of them and they reek of weeb. That's not to say I hate weebs, I do know nice weebs and they were usually people who I never had the first impression that they were weebs.
Now at first, I did not know he was one. (Or I might have forgotten that I did think he was one because once I think you're at least an okay guy, I don't really mind if you're a weeb anymore. He also supposedly used to have anime girl badges all over his "tactical spec ops black" backpack that I now faintly remember and might have told him it completely destroys the look he is attempting.) But gradually the fact that he consistently keeps recommending me manga and anime and knows the most obscure of references in those genres and even knows what shit like step ahegao something something hentai means (it was once referenced in a 4chan post that I showed him, the exact subgenre of hentai escapes me but step ahegao was inside it and he actually read the manga that was recommended by the guy who asked for one in that genre in the post, clearly well versed in the weaboo).
And he was also extremely proud of this iPhone background featuring an anime girl with tits that could jiggle in accordance to the angle of tilt of the phone, complete with sakura petal shower animated in the background. He even proudly showed me the fact that you could adjust the jiggliness of the titties. His steam profile picture and wallpaper used to be those of anime girls until he changed it recently in order to mask the fact that he's a weeb probably and he also collects wallpapers of Japanese visual novel games. Allegedly for fun. Hmmm, I mean all the signs point to the fact that he's a weeb but sure, of course, you collect those for fun. I collect knives for fun too, but I'm in no way a fan of knives. Nuh uh.
He also smokes. I will say first that I have nothing against smokers, honestly. I've known many a smoker and never judged them by the fact that they smoke or why they do it. But he, is a very special brand of shithead. See, where most smokers know that they shouldn't ask other people to smoke with them if they don't smoke, or they know it's not healthy or normal for most people, he thinks it's a very normal thing. In his words, "Everyone will smoke at one point or another in their lives, especially if you are in the army." Here's another one, "In order to become an officer in NS, you have to smoke and not get caught." Well you might wonder how the sergeant knows if you're officer material if you weren't caught, I know, I wondered too. But apparently, he says, they just know because they smoke too. But they will never know the method you used because they never used it themselves and hence won't catch you using it. And also apparently it's not leadership or intelligence that shows you're officer material. It's smoking. You heard it from him first. Honestly, I've lived 18 years and he has said by far the most stupid and illogical things I've ever heard. I wonder seriously if he listens to himself sometimes.
His Zippo lighter that never used to be functional (it doesn't have fuel in it), suddenly, recently became functional. I've told him in the past that if he fueled it up he could do those lighter tricks and shit which is pretty cool and he said," Nah I just own it for fun." Mysteriously though, it works now, he doesn't know the tricks because he just opens and lights it in the middle of class like how a normal person who doesn't know the tricks would. Well if he doesn't know the tricks, isn't practicing them either, I wonder why it works now? Can't be related to the fact that he disappears for half an hour for a few lessons and when he returns, plays with a packet of ciggarettes for about 10 mins before he finally keeps it in his bag now, can it? Nah, can't be. He doesn't smoke, just like how he's not a weeb.
Honestly I've seen him smoke 1 time, from which I could tell he's not an experienced smoker and doesn't know how to smoke from the way he expels the smoke and holds the cigg, not to mention the fact that he lacks a smoker's etiquette of not sharing the smoke with non-smokers. I've sat at an entire table of smokers smoking away and not caught a single whiff of the smoke. Not the case with him. Oh he would come and hang out with you and be all cheery as if it's nothing wrong. And also he broke his promise to a friend which was that he would only smoke when he was with him. I do not know who that guy is, never seen him and K9 still smoked in front of me. I don't have to say more do I.
Honestly, never mind that he smokes, he's going around extolling that smoking is normal and he told this rather innocent girl, whom I fear might not really know what's good for her, that smoking is a normal thing and he would respect her if she smokes. But it's fine if you don't, you don't have to. "It's cool to inject yourself with cancer, I'll respect you if you do. But if you don't, it's fine too, you just won't be cool and respectable." Honestly what a freaking shithead, that's all I can say. Grade A fuckwit. He just keeps denying what he is. I can't stand that. He's lost all the respect I had for him (honestly, I had some because he was finally someone that understands what I am saying when I talk about firearms and such, a rare find in Singapore). I hardly talk to him anymore and I don't lose anything out of it, he's a real fucker. At least man up and have the fucking balls to own up to your words and deeds. I recently got a haircut (which needs product to stay in proper shape and all) and he's told me that I need to get a real man's haircut, which in his opinion is a fucking buzz cut. If you think that's cool, more power to you, but by no means does a man's hairstyle determine his masculinity. If you think it does, your perspective needs some serious checking.
I've said more than I should and deviated quite a lot from my original talking points into a rant so I'll end it before I end up sleeping at 03 30.
And should the fact that I did not listen in class and hence not know what the last topic is about faze me? Yes, why yes it should. Am I fazed? Not in the slightest. Honestly, if you can do the tutorials, you can do the exam. I did, after all, finish an exam with 20mins to spare and scored an A grade on it. I can only say, you just gotta be careful. If you could do the tutorials, you should be able to do the exam. Plain and simple. But honestly I feel like eventually the fact that I am never fazed by anything will come around and bite me in me arse and I'll kick myself in the arse at that moment for having known but not bothered. Like I could literally be facing death and be calm as fuck until I realised I fucked up actually and my last words would be," Well shit." Or," Oh fuck."
I'm also kind of an indirectly direct guy. Like say if I don't like you, you'll eventually know. I won't say it to your face, but you'll know. I won't pretend I like you, or at least, not for an extended period of time and even if I'm tolerating you, I will definitely still make sure I get out what I don't like about you, though I might not make it obvious at that moment. And I also literally do not give a fuck if you don't like me back. I don't need approval from other people. The only approval I need is from myself. As a friend of mine would say," Fuck you, you don't tell me what to do." Well unless of course someone's life is in danger or you're telling me how to bake a cake or something. Otherwise, if you don't like me as a person, I don't care in the slightest. Little people don't get to dictate my life. Go ahead and block me, it only tells me I win by forfeit. You can earn my respect when you can back your shit up yourself. Until then, what you're telling me is the equivalent of air. Worthless.
Which also reminds me of this other piece of shit that I've actually talked about before. I'll just call him K9. Basically, a piece of shit not because he has a shit character, which he does but that's not the point, but because he denies what he is. First of all, he's a weeb (weaboo). I am inclined to dislike weebs if that's my first impression of them and they reek of weeb. That's not to say I hate weebs, I do know nice weebs and they were usually people who I never had the first impression that they were weebs.
Now at first, I did not know he was one. (Or I might have forgotten that I did think he was one because once I think you're at least an okay guy, I don't really mind if you're a weeb anymore. He also supposedly used to have anime girl badges all over his "tactical spec ops black" backpack that I now faintly remember and might have told him it completely destroys the look he is attempting.) But gradually the fact that he consistently keeps recommending me manga and anime and knows the most obscure of references in those genres and even knows what shit like step ahegao something something hentai means (it was once referenced in a 4chan post that I showed him, the exact subgenre of hentai escapes me but step ahegao was inside it and he actually read the manga that was recommended by the guy who asked for one in that genre in the post, clearly well versed in the weaboo).
And he was also extremely proud of this iPhone background featuring an anime girl with tits that could jiggle in accordance to the angle of tilt of the phone, complete with sakura petal shower animated in the background. He even proudly showed me the fact that you could adjust the jiggliness of the titties. His steam profile picture and wallpaper used to be those of anime girls until he changed it recently in order to mask the fact that he's a weeb probably and he also collects wallpapers of Japanese visual novel games. Allegedly for fun. Hmmm, I mean all the signs point to the fact that he's a weeb but sure, of course, you collect those for fun. I collect knives for fun too, but I'm in no way a fan of knives. Nuh uh.
He also smokes. I will say first that I have nothing against smokers, honestly. I've known many a smoker and never judged them by the fact that they smoke or why they do it. But he, is a very special brand of shithead. See, where most smokers know that they shouldn't ask other people to smoke with them if they don't smoke, or they know it's not healthy or normal for most people, he thinks it's a very normal thing. In his words, "Everyone will smoke at one point or another in their lives, especially if you are in the army." Here's another one, "In order to become an officer in NS, you have to smoke and not get caught." Well you might wonder how the sergeant knows if you're officer material if you weren't caught, I know, I wondered too. But apparently, he says, they just know because they smoke too. But they will never know the method you used because they never used it themselves and hence won't catch you using it. And also apparently it's not leadership or intelligence that shows you're officer material. It's smoking. You heard it from him first. Honestly, I've lived 18 years and he has said by far the most stupid and illogical things I've ever heard. I wonder seriously if he listens to himself sometimes.
His Zippo lighter that never used to be functional (it doesn't have fuel in it), suddenly, recently became functional. I've told him in the past that if he fueled it up he could do those lighter tricks and shit which is pretty cool and he said," Nah I just own it for fun." Mysteriously though, it works now, he doesn't know the tricks because he just opens and lights it in the middle of class like how a normal person who doesn't know the tricks would. Well if he doesn't know the tricks, isn't practicing them either, I wonder why it works now? Can't be related to the fact that he disappears for half an hour for a few lessons and when he returns, plays with a packet of ciggarettes for about 10 mins before he finally keeps it in his bag now, can it? Nah, can't be. He doesn't smoke, just like how he's not a weeb.
Honestly I've seen him smoke 1 time, from which I could tell he's not an experienced smoker and doesn't know how to smoke from the way he expels the smoke and holds the cigg, not to mention the fact that he lacks a smoker's etiquette of not sharing the smoke with non-smokers. I've sat at an entire table of smokers smoking away and not caught a single whiff of the smoke. Not the case with him. Oh he would come and hang out with you and be all cheery as if it's nothing wrong. And also he broke his promise to a friend which was that he would only smoke when he was with him. I do not know who that guy is, never seen him and K9 still smoked in front of me. I don't have to say more do I.
Honestly, never mind that he smokes, he's going around extolling that smoking is normal and he told this rather innocent girl, whom I fear might not really know what's good for her, that smoking is a normal thing and he would respect her if she smokes. But it's fine if you don't, you don't have to. "It's cool to inject yourself with cancer, I'll respect you if you do. But if you don't, it's fine too, you just won't be cool and respectable." Honestly what a freaking shithead, that's all I can say. Grade A fuckwit. He just keeps denying what he is. I can't stand that. He's lost all the respect I had for him (honestly, I had some because he was finally someone that understands what I am saying when I talk about firearms and such, a rare find in Singapore). I hardly talk to him anymore and I don't lose anything out of it, he's a real fucker. At least man up and have the fucking balls to own up to your words and deeds. I recently got a haircut (which needs product to stay in proper shape and all) and he's told me that I need to get a real man's haircut, which in his opinion is a fucking buzz cut. If you think that's cool, more power to you, but by no means does a man's hairstyle determine his masculinity. If you think it does, your perspective needs some serious checking.
I've said more than I should and deviated quite a lot from my original talking points into a rant so I'll end it before I end up sleeping at 03 30.
Saturday, February 6, 2016
Stay
So I have not blogged recently at all. No excuses really, I was just really into Terraria for the past month, though not so much in the recent week due to work and trying to get into the exam mood, which they are coming in the next couple weeks. Also generally had a lack of really exciting things to blog about so there. But I kinda wanna just talk about my life in NYP so far and how things could have turned out quite differently.
I've had a chance to follow a friend I will call B, to an event, namely the Adventure Club's commissioning or handing down of positions or whatever you wish to call it. The seniors leave and pass on their positions to the young'uns basically. As some of you might know, I'm actually in my second year at NYP, though I'm still year 1 technically cause I transferred courses. Even less known is that I've actually joined Adventure Club on one training, namely the very first one of the academic year in my first year. It left a bad taste in my mouth for reasons I will not say, not exactly anything wrong with them, mostly with me. DGAD is kind of killer on workload at the time, I wanted my gaming time and I wasn't keen on reaching home at 2330 so I did not continue on with ADC. Quite ironically I usually returned around that time later in the first year though.
So anyway, I joined them for their commissioning and the funny thing is really, I could've been there as one of them rather than an uninvited entourage. It was really strange as I was sitting there and looking at all the year 2 people taking over positions, going up on stage, and thinking," I would've known these people had I decided to stay with them instead of pussing out." Which led me to think of another thing as well. Probably very little known is that I had this interest in joining Ballroom in my first year as well. I was just quite mesmerised by the dresses and the moves. Perhaps even before I was in NYP, I had some interest in joining a partnered dance, not a great interest but it was on the list at least. But there was no one I knew joining and I wasn't keen on joining on my own so I stayed my decision and ended up in the Go Home Club - the CCAless people. So the other thing I was thinking was that had I gone and joined Ballroom, I probably would have had a very different relationship with B and A, a guy from Ballroom that I am acquainted with.
It's just quite interesting that I'm running into my past in quite unexpected situations and I'm seeing how differently things could have turned out differently had I stayed with my previous decisions or my penchants.
I've had a chance to follow a friend I will call B, to an event, namely the Adventure Club's commissioning or handing down of positions or whatever you wish to call it. The seniors leave and pass on their positions to the young'uns basically. As some of you might know, I'm actually in my second year at NYP, though I'm still year 1 technically cause I transferred courses. Even less known is that I've actually joined Adventure Club on one training, namely the very first one of the academic year in my first year. It left a bad taste in my mouth for reasons I will not say, not exactly anything wrong with them, mostly with me. DGAD is kind of killer on workload at the time, I wanted my gaming time and I wasn't keen on reaching home at 2330 so I did not continue on with ADC. Quite ironically I usually returned around that time later in the first year though.
So anyway, I joined them for their commissioning and the funny thing is really, I could've been there as one of them rather than an uninvited entourage. It was really strange as I was sitting there and looking at all the year 2 people taking over positions, going up on stage, and thinking," I would've known these people had I decided to stay with them instead of pussing out." Which led me to think of another thing as well. Probably very little known is that I had this interest in joining Ballroom in my first year as well. I was just quite mesmerised by the dresses and the moves. Perhaps even before I was in NYP, I had some interest in joining a partnered dance, not a great interest but it was on the list at least. But there was no one I knew joining and I wasn't keen on joining on my own so I stayed my decision and ended up in the Go Home Club - the CCAless people. So the other thing I was thinking was that had I gone and joined Ballroom, I probably would have had a very different relationship with B and A, a guy from Ballroom that I am acquainted with.
It's just quite interesting that I'm running into my past in quite unexpected situations and I'm seeing how differently things could have turned out differently had I stayed with my previous decisions or my penchants.
Saturday, January 9, 2016
AC
Incoming rant about what the AC franchise of games were like, what they've done wrong mostly. Note that this only contains context with reference to Black Flag and Rogue, not the later titles, so probably quite late to the party.
I've just spent the past 3 weeks playing 2 AC titles, namely Black Flag and Rogue, and I don't have very many good things to say about it apart from the fact that their storylines are good. In terms of the story, setting and research, they're really good. It's chronologically accurate, with tie-ins to real world events/people, i.e. the collapse of Lisbon in Rogue and Stede Bonnet in Black Flag.
But what they've done wrong in my opinion is the Naval campaigns. The mini-games you have to play to unlock in game shit that takes obscene amounts of time like fucking 30+h (not sure on the exact time but it was fucking obscene) to complete a mission in Black Flag so I could get that last fucking treasure map for a 100% total sync. I've just finished Rogue and I find myself at the same doorstep. I've finished the main game and is waiting for the fucking Naval campaign to finish so I can unlock all the cosmetic items it gives.
And here's another kicker, the weapons side of things are god damn poorly designed. In Rogue I was able to actually get the Officer's Shortsword (never mind the fact that it's actually a copy of the Officer's Smallswords in Black Flag) that costs 14k and is the best purchasable weapon, faster than I can do all the other challenges for the weapons they unlock. But then here's the thing, the Officer's Shortsword actually is better stats wise than most of the fucking weapons you get from the challenges. There is no other reason to use these other than cosmetics and honestly, the fact that the stats are poorer sometimes put me off from wanting to use them. Why not make them comparable or at least make the purchasable weapons weaker so there's actually an incentive for a player to want to unlock them/use them.
The next stupid thing it does is put chests and animus fragments in the middle of the fucking ocean, like sure, you put them in the city or town or whatever, that's fine. Sometimes it's fun to have to find a way to reach them. But in the middle of the fucking ocean and I have to take a minute or 2 just to sail there for fucking 300 pounds/reales? What the fuck? And it's honestly not the money I'm after but the 100% total sync and it's a fucking waste of time to go look for all of them even though they are mapped on your map.
And also the introduction of weapons like fucking at the second last sequence which is about 80% through the game. In Black Flag you got the Rope Dart last and I never used it unless I had to for the 100% total sync because the thing is, I've gone almost the entire game without needing it, I'm likely not going to need it now as well. Same goes with the grenades in Rogue, they were introduced so late, I never used them, not that I really had a reason to, because the Rope Darts, which you get at the start in Rogue, were so fucking OP. And it's god damn funny to pull gunners off their towers or ledges and watch them fall to their deaths with the worst ragdoll physics I've seen in a triple A game.
And also AC multiplayer. What the literal fuck has Ubisoft been smoking? A game where Assassins try to kill other Assassins? What the fuck? It doesn't work that way. Assassins fight Templars where Assassins get to be more stealthy and Templars better at open battle, sure, I can see that work, but the whole premise of the multiplayer is that everyone has stealth. Then who the fuck is going to die? Really terrible. No one plays it, the entire scene is dead. Which really goes to show how good it is. It's one thing to play co-op like in Unity, but it's really an entire different thing to have an online multiplayer arena style game that they were trying to do.
Have you ever heard of anyone buying an AC title to play multiplayer? No, you haven't. That's because no one does, they buy it for the single player story mode. It's like a CoD or Battlefield player buying the latest release just so they can play the single player campaign. No one does that, they buy it for the multiplayer experience. So why do you even make a multiplayer mode for a game that people only play for the story? The game doesn't need it. In the words of Mr Blanchet, who used to teach me before I switched courses, "If your game doesn't need it, don't put it in,". (Ironically he used to work at Ubisoft.)
It's like Ubisoft is making all these unnecessary, poorly made design choices so that there is an "after-game", except, there is no after-game. Why the fuck would I fire up Black Flag again if there's no missions for me or further progression in the story? Same for Rogue. The only thing I really have left to do is mindlessly killing guards or civilians. And that's pointless and devoid of fun. And really an after-game that unlocks a fucking cosmetic item? What's the point? So I can look cool killing guards?
I honestly hope that Unity, Syndicate and future titles aren't inundated with these crappy design choices. My friend said that Unity doesn't do the shit they do with weapons and outfits but honestly the game from what I heard was bugged to shit and filled with graphical errors, it completely deterred me from wanting to buy it. And honestly, also, it was $49 without discount on the Winter Sales on Steam for the base game, not even some special edition, even half price I wouldn't have got it.
I've just spent the past 3 weeks playing 2 AC titles, namely Black Flag and Rogue, and I don't have very many good things to say about it apart from the fact that their storylines are good. In terms of the story, setting and research, they're really good. It's chronologically accurate, with tie-ins to real world events/people, i.e. the collapse of Lisbon in Rogue and Stede Bonnet in Black Flag.
But what they've done wrong in my opinion is the Naval campaigns. The mini-games you have to play to unlock in game shit that takes obscene amounts of time like fucking 30+h (not sure on the exact time but it was fucking obscene) to complete a mission in Black Flag so I could get that last fucking treasure map for a 100% total sync. I've just finished Rogue and I find myself at the same doorstep. I've finished the main game and is waiting for the fucking Naval campaign to finish so I can unlock all the cosmetic items it gives.
And here's another kicker, the weapons side of things are god damn poorly designed. In Rogue I was able to actually get the Officer's Shortsword (never mind the fact that it's actually a copy of the Officer's Smallswords in Black Flag) that costs 14k and is the best purchasable weapon, faster than I can do all the other challenges for the weapons they unlock. But then here's the thing, the Officer's Shortsword actually is better stats wise than most of the fucking weapons you get from the challenges. There is no other reason to use these other than cosmetics and honestly, the fact that the stats are poorer sometimes put me off from wanting to use them. Why not make them comparable or at least make the purchasable weapons weaker so there's actually an incentive for a player to want to unlock them/use them.
The next stupid thing it does is put chests and animus fragments in the middle of the fucking ocean, like sure, you put them in the city or town or whatever, that's fine. Sometimes it's fun to have to find a way to reach them. But in the middle of the fucking ocean and I have to take a minute or 2 just to sail there for fucking 300 pounds/reales? What the fuck? And it's honestly not the money I'm after but the 100% total sync and it's a fucking waste of time to go look for all of them even though they are mapped on your map.
And also the introduction of weapons like fucking at the second last sequence which is about 80% through the game. In Black Flag you got the Rope Dart last and I never used it unless I had to for the 100% total sync because the thing is, I've gone almost the entire game without needing it, I'm likely not going to need it now as well. Same goes with the grenades in Rogue, they were introduced so late, I never used them, not that I really had a reason to, because the Rope Darts, which you get at the start in Rogue, were so fucking OP. And it's god damn funny to pull gunners off their towers or ledges and watch them fall to their deaths with the worst ragdoll physics I've seen in a triple A game.
And also AC multiplayer. What the literal fuck has Ubisoft been smoking? A game where Assassins try to kill other Assassins? What the fuck? It doesn't work that way. Assassins fight Templars where Assassins get to be more stealthy and Templars better at open battle, sure, I can see that work, but the whole premise of the multiplayer is that everyone has stealth. Then who the fuck is going to die? Really terrible. No one plays it, the entire scene is dead. Which really goes to show how good it is. It's one thing to play co-op like in Unity, but it's really an entire different thing to have an online multiplayer arena style game that they were trying to do.
Have you ever heard of anyone buying an AC title to play multiplayer? No, you haven't. That's because no one does, they buy it for the single player story mode. It's like a CoD or Battlefield player buying the latest release just so they can play the single player campaign. No one does that, they buy it for the multiplayer experience. So why do you even make a multiplayer mode for a game that people only play for the story? The game doesn't need it. In the words of Mr Blanchet, who used to teach me before I switched courses, "If your game doesn't need it, don't put it in,". (Ironically he used to work at Ubisoft.)
It's like Ubisoft is making all these unnecessary, poorly made design choices so that there is an "after-game", except, there is no after-game. Why the fuck would I fire up Black Flag again if there's no missions for me or further progression in the story? Same for Rogue. The only thing I really have left to do is mindlessly killing guards or civilians. And that's pointless and devoid of fun. And really an after-game that unlocks a fucking cosmetic item? What's the point? So I can look cool killing guards?
I honestly hope that Unity, Syndicate and future titles aren't inundated with these crappy design choices. My friend said that Unity doesn't do the shit they do with weapons and outfits but honestly the game from what I heard was bugged to shit and filled with graphical errors, it completely deterred me from wanting to buy it. And honestly, also, it was $49 without discount on the Winter Sales on Steam for the base game, not even some special edition, even half price I wouldn't have got it.
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